I would like to start off saying hi I’m Jacki, I am very new to the Blog world, but I feel like I need an outlet and this seems like a very safe way to get out all the things that are in my head.
April 8th is my last day of employment at my current position in which I will join the huge mass of people on unemployment looking for employment. For many people this would seems like more weight added on, for me this is the end to a New Beginning, in truth I have been looking for a job for over a year now. The place where I was working could only be described as poison, for me at least, I was surrounded by negativity and people that were supposedly my friends turned into people who only wanted to make me look bad for their own agendas. I became the person to blame for everything even if I was not involved.
Prior to living in Jersey I lived in Florida, my goal in Florida was to find me. I was doing very well in that journey at that time in my life. I got rid of a horrible relationship that had been dragging me down. I started to really workout not only by myself but with a group of people who I am blessed to have as friends. I did not only like the me on the inside but also the me on the outside which was a feet within itself. I had stopped seeing this sad girl in the mirror I was seeing what everyone else saw. Sadly that journey was interrupted when I was diagnosed as having cancerous cells in my cervix in 2009. I push off surgery till after my 25th Birthday. The day after my 25th Birthday I made a decision that has changed my life and to be honest I am not sure for the best. I decided I was moving back with my parents at this point they had moved from Roanoke, VA to Swedesboro, NJ. The reasoning I had was if I pulled out of the surgery ok that I needed to start over, start somewhere new, I convinced myself this was the next step for me and I would take everything I had done in Florida with me and continue my journey of finding me. I moved June 5th packed up the car and a moving truck and the Machiavelli (who is my 6 year old Golden Retriever and my baby) and drove to NJ. Since then I started to work for a non-profit which is where I felt I would grow and learn and have Mentors to help with the process. I wanted something completely different from the business world. To say it bluntly I chose the wrong non-profit. Now I find myself dying to be back in the business world and my Florida world. My previous boss in Florida calls me once a month to check on me and beg me to come back, believe me if I could afford to live in Miami I would jump at the chance to be there.
So it is time that I let go of all the negative things in my life and start back on the journey to find me. So tomorrow will start my new life, my new journey, I believe in starting journeys in the beginning of something and April 1st seems like a good starting point. So I hope whoever is reading this enjoys the ride that I am about to go on, which will deal with losing weight, becoming healthy from the inside out, loosing negative friends, hopefully gaining new positive ones, gaining old friends lost back, and more importantly finding the real me, and accepting that person fully.
